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Trinidad: We 3 In Love & Strength

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I hardly post on here anymore, I mostly post on tumblr now, I guess, but I haven’t totally forgotten about this blog…

I suppose I should first announce that Matt, Marco, and I have launched our weekly bio comic, The Feeling Is Multiplied, and you should check it out!

Next, I wanted to share this Love Day mix I made for Matt and Marco… It’s all one file, I take pride on mixing tracks and getting a theme just right, tell me what you think!

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A mix I made for the campers…

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This second session has been wonderful, but a little more draining… It inspired me to finish up the mix I was making for campers this summer with some themes on friendship, loving yourself, and being solid with each other.

This is one long mp3 file, because I love actually mixing songs. The campers in the band I was helping as band manager were all 8 or 9. I tried to have a variety of songs and appeal to their tastes on the themes I was wanting to share.. <3

 

 

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https://www.dropbox.com/s/1pk29fw85t16i1v/staysolid_2014rockcampmix_byblue.mp3

Tres Corazones Después Año

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A lot of people feel grouchy about Valentine’s Day and I get it, I really do. I have not always been happy about love, nor have I always had good relationships. Plus, in a capitalist, oppressive, heteronormative culture, holidays like Valentine’s Day can feel like just another obnoxious reason people are trying to get you to buy things…

However, I am seriously into love, celebration, and giving.

For a winter holiday present (or, I suppose you could say. a Christmas gift) in 2013, I made both Matt and Marco a zine, The 3 of Us. For Valentine’s Day, or The Infamous Love Day, I also handmade them a little surprise…

Last year, just before The Infamous Love Day, two of my partners, Matt and Marco had just moved into an apartment together, becoming more than metamours, now they were housemates. I was so thrilled that these two dudes loved me and were confidant and close enough not to be bothered by the expectations that society puts on them. To not view each other as competition, to not be worried that people will think they’re gay, but to think highly of each other and value each other as friends on a deep level, so much so that they decided to become housemates. To celebrate The Infamous Love Day, I wanted to delight in the the space they were sharing and make them both feel special and appreciated. So, I made a lot of little paper hearts. On sparkly construction paper,  writing on each one some quality that I loved about one of them and I hid them all over their new space!

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A year later, I find myself sharing that same space with them. To me, this was a really big deal. I have only had two experiences living with partners and neither were very good. One was when I was 19, the other when I was 26, and it was an incredibly abusive and unhealthy situation with Andy Johnson. I found myself staying with the family I nannied for as a safety caution while waiting until Andy moved out of the house I lived in. So, a commitment I have had to myself since then was that I would NOT live with another partner again unless I was moving in with more than one partner. I felt this way partially because a big component of that ex’s abuse was his jealousy. The first time he assaulted me, he was blackout drunk and he had come to where I was on a date to confront me. Because he agreed to have an ethically non monogamous relationship with me and I am super into openness/honesty,   he knew exactly where I was. After making a scene in the bar, he followed me outside,  pushing me against a wall to yell at me about the mistakes I was making. From there, during the relationship, his jealousy only got worse and more hateful and more destructive. Being in a relationship like that can really eat away at your trust with yourself, so I felt like making the commitment that I wouldn’t move in with another partner unless it was multiple partners was important for two reasons. The first reason being that, ultimately, I want to live in a poly-family type of household, so why make a big commitment like moving in with anyone unless they share that value? Secondly, I don’t want to be with anyone violently jealous again, and making the commitment to move in with me and another partner of mine (hopefully) would mean that the potential partners I would be moving in with would not be violent (much less violently jealous). If one of them turned out to be, at least I would have a closer witness this time (though a few people got to witness Andy’s violent abuse despite not living with us).  The thing about having been with an abusive partner is that there remains with you a doubt in your own judgement. Even when a relationship seems great, I still feel worried in the back of my mind that everything will fall apart at any moment.

While we’ve had our own hurdles to clear the last year, I really feel like my home is with Matt and Marco. We find ourselves gardening together, building a couch together, planning our futures, working on an autobio poly comic, working on an empowerment app, and more. I feel this space and that my relationship with the two of them is really constructive. This mix I’ve made for them is an attempt at capturing our feelings and journey over the last year as a story that is told as a mix… <3

Tres Corazones Después Año: A Love Day Mix for Matt and Marco – https://db.tt/3GtjD8iX  (it’s one mp3 file, because I seriously mixed it y’all)

1. I Feel It In My Heart – Talking Heads
2. Rebel Girl – Bikini Kill
3. Joan Of Arc – Arcade Fire
4. Love Is Dangerous – French Horn Rebellion
5. Sweaty (Shazam Remix) – Muscles
6. Mommy Complex – Peaches
7. I Can Change – LCD Soundsystem
8. Myth – Beach House
9. Good Intent – Kimbra
10. Forever – HAIM
11. The Reason The Night Is Long – Rainer Maria
12. Step Up – Hercules
13. Little Shadow – Yeah Yeah Yeahs
14. Running Up That Hill – Kate Bush
15. This Too Shall Pass – OK Go
16. You’ll Find A Way – Santigold
17. Vaporize – Broken Bells
18. I Don’t Know What The Weather Will Be – Laura Mvula
19. The Good Thing – Talking Heads

Fixin’ To Dance, 04/08/11

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http://ge.tt/84XZhy5

Song list…

1. Destroy Everything You Touch by Ladytron
2. Kiss With A Fist by Florence and the Machine
3. Stupid Grin by Dragonette
4. Yr Mangled Heart by The Gossip
5. Robots In Love by Beautiful Small Machines
6. Shut Up and Let Me Go by The Ting Tings
7. Fuck Off Is Not The Only Thing You have To Show by CSS
8. Little Secrets by Passion Pit
9. Hit It Hard by Peaches
10. The DJ’s Got A Gun by Robots In Disguise
11. D.A.N.C.E. (Extended) by Justice
12. Fixin To Thrill by Dragonette
13. Let’s Make Love And Listen To Death From Above by CSS
14. I Turn My Camera On by Spoon
15. Fell In Love With A Girl by The White Stripes
16. Let Your Love Grow Tall by Passion Pit
17. Heart of Hearts by !!!
18. Home by Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros

Another Step

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Another mix, I am enjoying making these enough that I decided to create a little podcast..

http://ge.tt/9wZlqy5

Here is the play list…

1. Everything is Aweful by The Taxpayers
2. The Sex Has Made Me Stupid by Robots In Disguise
3. I Can’t Touch You Anymore by The Magnetic Fields
4. Well I Can Take It by Tender Forever
5. Lion in a Coma by Animal Collective
6. Bear by The Antlers
7. i left the light on by Madeline
8. Baby Im Afraid by Yeah Yeah Yeahs
9. Yr Mangled Heart by The Gossip
10. You Got Lucky by Tom Petty And The Heartbreakers
11.  I Know by Fiona Apple
12. You Love To Fail by The Magnetic Fields
13. Half Of You by Cat Power
14. Lonely Lonely by Feist
15. Heavy In Your Arms by Florence and The Machine
16. Let The Wheels Turn Slowly by The Taxpayers
17. Know Better Learn Faster by Thao With Get Down Stay Down
18. To Be Myself Completely by Belle And Sebastian
19. I Feel It My Heart by Talking Heads

Mixing…

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A mix I made, for you to download. – http://wikisend.com/download/612598/WhenWillTheWoundsHeal.m4a

This is the playlist…

1 Wet And Rusting by Menomena
2 Long Knives by Rainer Maria
3 I’m Not Calling You A Liar by Florence and the Machine
4 As Tall As Cliffs by Margot & the Nuclear So and So’s
5 Keep On Runnin’ by Cat Power
6 I Don’t Believe You by The Magnetic Fields
7 Then If I’m Weird I Want To Share by Tender Forever
8 Fidelity by Regina Spektor
9 Paper Bag by Fiona Apple
10 My Body Is A Cage by The Arcade Fire
11 Ears Ring by Rainer Maria
12 Don’t Think Twice, It’s All Right by Bob Dylan
13 Feeling Neglected? by Rainer Maria
14 True Affetion by The Blow
15 Something Grown Together by Flobots
16 Fix You by Coldplay
17 The Reason the Night is Long by Rainer Maria
18 You Ruined Everything by Jonathon Coulton
19 I Think I’m in Love by The Moldy Peaches
20 Why Do You Love Me So Much by Frida Hyvönen
21 Home by Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros


If you like any of the songs a lot, you can hit me up for them on dropbox or even via email..

Update: I decided to go libsyn and make this and future mixes into a podcast…

http://notesonbluewings.libsyn.com/when-will-the-wounds-heal