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It’s Not Like You Get Out And You’re Suddenly Just Magically Who You Used to Be

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Big sighs today. Just because you fall in love someone, doesn’t mean they can meet your emotional needs.

I am still healing from so much that new, unintentional, small wounds can seem insurmountable…

And, when hurt, however accidentally, I need a lot of action taken to heal, not just sweet words. Words are nice, but so easily faked… Which is how I got to this condition, being with someone who lied or false-promised too often. What action though? Gosh, I don’t even know, but things don’t feel okay now. Being this way makes me feel so high maintenance, but I guess that is just how it is when the l-word jumps in and you become fluid-bonded. Maybe I am still not ready and it doesn’t matter how nice everyone is or how much I want to trust them. My hurt is deepening because it’s like the other people involved just get to move on and I am stuck, my heart is frozen with fear because of a little accident. Well, to be fair to myself, a little accident right after some lack of sexual health awareness. I don’t want to be stuck, but words don’t seem to be enough to ease the pain of a boundary crossed and the feeling that something has been taken away from me, however accidentally.

I talked to my counselor about it yesterday, I talked to some poly friends about it today, I came to some more conclusions, but goddamn if everything isn’t a work in progress all the time.

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Written by lovemotionstory

August 17, 2011 at 2:49 pm

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  1. > Just because you fall in love someone, doesn’t mean they can meet your emotional needs.

    I’m fond of saying, “Love alone isn’t enough. Love is just the opening bid. It takes way more than love to make a relationship work.”

    I’m sorry you’re going through a rough patch. I’d be happy to buy you a beer sometime, if you wanna sit down and vent about it. Seems a shame we’ve never met face to face yet. :-)

    browse

    August 18, 2011 at 4:57 pm


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